I’m so sensitive it is actually unbelievable…Not being around people solves that problem but that’s not really living is it? Also my idealist ways of looking at possible relationships is so damaging. If i believe a person has some hidden, mysterious beauty, in seconds i’ll jump into fantasising about our future. I usually am too shy to even find out if they even are what i assumed them to be and then find myself gripping onto this idea of them for years. Just before, i actually got up the courage to talk to a boy i thought was really special and the harsh reality of who he actually was brought me straight back down to the harsh reality that is life.